Thursday, August 27, 2015

My struggle with myself

Today, I am linking up with Mama Kat's Writer's Workshop with this prompt...

What is sabotaging your plan to drop 5 pounds?

http://mommasaid.net/2011/01/21/mothers-cause-eating-disorders

I mentioned in my July recap post that I fell off the low-carb bandwagon. I was hoping August would be better.

It's not.

When I am unhappy in another area of my life, I turn to food to make myself feel better. I'm not exactly over-eating, but I'm not making the best choices when it comes to food. All of my comfort foods are high in carbs or sugar.

Case in point: Tuesday I had an especially tough conference call at work. Everyone went off topic, and I was annoyed that we weren't getting anything done. I disconnected from the call and immediately wanted to leave the office and go get ice cream or something else sweet. I didn't want to eat the sensible Chinese chicken salad I'd brought for myself. I wanted to get something tasty to make myself feel better.

Back in July I thought maybe my poor eating habits had to do with not paying enough attention to self-care. But this month I finally got a much-needed weekend at home alone, I turned our walk-in closet into a cozy reading space, and I've been taking time each day to read and recharge on my lunch break.

But I'm still making bad food choices.

I've realized that it all comes down to wanting to be healthier. Reading Gretchen Rubin's Better than Before earlier this year, taught me that I am a questioner. That means I only do things that I find valuable.

So why don't I find eating healthier valuable?

I did in June. I made it through that whole month without cheating at all.

Why can't I get back there?

Nothing is stopping me but me.

Get it together, Kate! Start eating healthier! Now!


What things do you find it hard to do? How do you get yourself back on track?

14 comments:

  1. I can totally relate to this. There have been moments and times in my life when I was able to commit to healthier eating but it's so easy to backslide and so hard to get back to that mindset.

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    1. Thanks, Jen. It's just frustrating when I can't find motivation within myself. :(

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  2. Eating only healthy foods is hard, when there are so many other unhealthy alternatives. I get on the wagon and fall off repeatedly. It's a mental challenge.

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    1. Healthy food takes more time to prepare. Junk food is just so easy sometimes. It's definitely a mental challenge. I agree. :)

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  3. Eating healthy is a constant struggle. I can do well for like a month then I usually slip. I try not to be too hard on myself because otherwise I will just eat more. I am also a mood eater so when I am having a bad day I will eat anything. ALso I find it hard to stay motivated to work out. I am so tired at night by the time I have the chance that I often make excuses. I offer little advice but completely understand what you are saying!!

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    1. Thanks, Grace. I try not buy unhealthy stuff because then it makes it a little harder to eat the bad stuff. But even that doesn't always work. :)

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  4. You put it exactly like I am! Why is it so hard to eat just plain healthy? Give up the coke? Walk a block or two everyday? I hear ya... time to get it together once and for all! Loved your post.

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    1. Thanks, Carol! Good luck to you too. We can do this. :)

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  5. It is so easy to fall off that wagon. We all...ALL do it. Baby steps. Look at it this way, you ARE making attempts at it and that is MORE than most people are doing. And AND making any attempts is better than none right?! So be proud of you for those choices. You're doing the best you can. You're human and we make slip ups. Keep going. You'll get there!!!

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    1. Thanks! I agree. Any time I make one good choice, it's better than not making it. :)

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  6. I totally understand your hesitation to fully make the healthy choice. I am an emotional eater myself (and I actually do binge eat). The thing is, if you can keep things in moderation, a strict diet isn't needed to get healthy. But if you can't moderate yourself, it may help to fully turn yourself over to the diet.

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    1. Yes, moderation is definitely the key! I do struggle with that though. I find abstinence is sometimes easier. :)

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  7. Food is so tricky! I am rarely stronger than my impulses for tasty food. I swear it's addictive.

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    1. Glad I'm not the only one. Tasty food is evil. ;)

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